Another Day...

Today is going to suck I can tell that already. Debbie is in a shitty mood and so are the boys. Danny Debbie's brother seems to be more cheerful then his sister Debbie at times but then again Debbie has just lost her husband. I woke up around nine something and then started to get ready for the day and then watched TV with Danny and we watched Green Mile. I also watched a show on Amish marriage and weddings. It was a pretty neat show. I can't wait to watch the hour long special of The Duggar's Nineteen kids and counting. I think the kids are making a movie or something. I think that is pretty neat. Well I have been sitting in my room listening to Neil Young, Johnny Cash, and The Beatles. I am an odd ball. I am just so ready for the move to be over. I am so ready to scream. I still miss Don like crazy. I just hope today is not so bad. I feel pretty grim today. Its a rainy cold day and the house it cold. Everything in this house is cold. The water, the air and most everyone in this house. Its almost Thanksgiving and Christmas but it doesn't feel like it at all. It feels like hell. I wonder why Don had to pass on around the holidays. I just wonder why he had to pass away at all. I wanted him to be around longer. I am getting use to the fact that he is dead and I don't like that. He becomes part of the past in the day but when I sleep I can still see his smile and hear his voice. I just wonder what he is thinking of me now and if he is proud of me. I wonder if he knows we miss him so very much and I want to talk to him again. I hate that he is not going to come ever again. This has been the longest and coldest month. It has been this way after Don died. We have had a bit of sun but more rain and gloom. I want Don back.

bye

Libby