I admit I am dealing with putting my life together. I know God is watching over me and know what a great young woman I am. I just wish I had more faith in myself and sometimes I feel very alone. I have Debbie but I had Don and now he is gone. I hope Don is in heaven and with his loved ones but I still miss him so much it hurts. I feel like I have lost my mother forever. I know she was very nasty to me growing up and never loved me or anyone but I will always love her. I want to cry when I think of her. Life is very hard and its getting harder and harder everyday. I can only take life day from day or I will go mad if I don't. I am not only here for me right now but I am here for Debbie, my Dad, my future husband and children and the Lord. The Lord has big plans for us all including Debbie and me. I just don't know what the purpose it yet. That kind of scares me at times. I am trying to pray super hard.
I have school tomorrow and I have to go to the doctor tomorrow. I still have to pick out my outfit for tomorrow and then try to go to sleep. I am going to listen to some music as I try to fall asleep. I maybe even have the album picked out to fall asleep too. Maybe a Pink Floyd CD or a country CD. I have not made up my mind up yet. I have a CD I bought but never had a listen too. So Maybe I will listen to that album. I am thinking tomorrow will be like today full of drama but the day will also have a few blessings in the end. That is all that matters in the end.
God Bless
Libby
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