My Crazy Circus Life

Its another day of trying to move back to Nebraska. I have been working on some pretty small and useless tasks like cleaning up my make up bag and stuff in my room. I found my self throwing out old nasty make up, pens and paper. I found a bunch of stuff I thought was lost forever. I also tried to clean up the bathroom and have been trying to keep to the kitchen clean. The thing about cleaning the kitchen is no matter how hard you have tried to clean the kitchen late at night someone will come into the kitchen and leave a huge mess and the mess is left for you to clean. It really ticks me off. Oh well such is life! I am getting super stressed out about the move and the mess in the house. I have turned into a basket case. I am trying to stay cheerful but it is very hard. I wish Don were here I really do. Anyway I made sure to clean my room this morning and crap. I know you don't care what I am wearing but I am wearing a cute brown skirt with a plumb purple shirt. The whole outfit I am wearing is under fifteen dollars. I love Wal-Mart and the Goodwill. Well anyway I finally wrote my angry pen pal a long letter after a long time of not writing her back. That is one thing that will change in my life when we get back to Nebraska not putting everything off until the last minute. I am going to be a whole different person when I get back to Lincoln. I feel great changes for myself when I get home to Nebraska.

I have been busy listening to music and I admit to be listening to a lot Country music and Christian Music. The two types of music I swore of when I was in the seventh grade. I am still listening to a lot of classic rock and rock music and even pop music I just like Christian music because it is so uplifting. Is it just me or is Pink Floyd music a little depressing. No wonder why they call Roger Waters the gloomiest man in music. He is very smart and a great song writer. Anyway I can't wait to watch The Duggar's one hour special on TLC on Sunday. Its only two days away. Its still shocking to see all nineteen kids become adults. I rarely hear about John-David anymore. I think Jessa, Jill and John David are pretty busy working as EMT's and being young adults now a days. I think its cool the family seems to stay together even after the kids turn eighteen. I wish I had a family like that. Its true a family that prays together stays together. My Dad was always trying to take the family to church. I support The Duggar family. I pray someday God will find me a man who will love and respect me for me. I have been used before and its hard to get over the fact the person you choose to spend your life with was not the person you thought he was. I still feel hurt and tricked about the whole issue. I just hope God will find a man who will love, respect me. I want to have as much kids as the Lord will bless me with.

God Bless

Libby